Habits...

First thing this morning I caught myself almost breaking the challenge.  I had rolled out of bed, showered, and was on the hunt for breakfast.  I pulled out a pot and filled it with water, and plunked two eggs into it.  And that’s when I caught myself.  I wasn’t even thinking.  I would have eaten 2/3 of the eggs given to me at once!  Without thinking!  I am struck by how habitual an eater I am.  I quickly dried the eggs off like precious jewels found at the bottom of a stream, and opted instead for oatmeal with a little honey stirred in.

Breakfast: 1/3 cup of oatmeal mixed with 2/3 cup of water and honey to taste

Last night I was aware that I would have to change some patterns in my life, I was surprised at how many ingrained food habits I really did have.  This morning without thinking I prepared coffee for myself, I usually make a 3 cup french press to help me with my writing.  I was grateful to see that we were allowed to drink coffee, it would have been sad to let go of this habit.  But I was again reminded that coffee is a luxury that not everyone can afford.  The cost of coffee beans alone is prohibitive to some, and that I drink fair trade coffee means that I am paying even more for it.  

I have caught myself thinking this morning about what I might have for lunch, what might taste good, and planning my meals for the day, however, my planning is not taking into account what I have from the food bank.  Perhaps a better descriptor for the time being is dreaming.  I am dreaming about what I could make for my meals, this is not grounded in the reality of my experience, and it causes me to wonder, how many who use the food bank also dream about food that is out of grasp?

-C